Every morning I open God's Word and spend time reading the inspired words meant to teach, reprove, correct and train me in righteousness. I long to be "complete, equipped for every good work." But I also long to be in fellowship with Jesus. My heart yearns to be in His presence throughout the day, but especially, especially, in the early hours of each day.
In Isaiah 26:8-9 the prophet writes:
In the path of your judgments,
O Lord, we wait for you;
your name and remembrance
are the desire of our soul.
My soul yearns for you in the night;
my spirit within me earnestly seeks you.
For when your judgments are in the earth,
the inhabitants of the world learn righteousness.
So, after reading a blog post by Scotty Smith this morning, I adapted his prayer:
Dear heavenly Father, many times every day I need to be reminded of how I entered your story of redemption and how I stay there. Occasionally (and foolishly), like Elijah, I look for something in me to boast in—like being one of the few who really spends time alone with you each morning. At other times I know myself to be be completely ill-deserving—an idolater, not worshiping Baal, but running to broken cisterns when Jesus’ isn’t enough, or worshiping empty idols that have no life and cannot give like. How could I possibly be yours? Then, like a rebuke or a kiss from heaven (depending on my attitude), I hear the Holy Spirit speak these words to my heart: “I have kept for myself . . .” As in the days before Elijah, of Elijah, and long after Elijah, you’ve reserved and are preserving a much-loved people for yourself. My only claim to being your son is that you found me and keep me, by grace.Father, because of past grace, present grace, and future grace, I want to live with bowed knees and palms up, before you. Grace will remain grace forever. Hallelujah! Hallelujah and Amen.
Still, my soul yearns...for Him.